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A Memento : I Still Have It With Me


"I still have it with me, and I still take you as the person you've always been to me."

I found it two days ago in the box where I keep my mementos. To be honest, I was pretty amazed to see that it's still working.

I can still see the playlists and play the songs, which to my surprised, sounded unfamiliar to me, now. I still remember a few, some old songs that we sang along in your car, but the rest.. I felt like those were not mine.

I wonder, have I and my music taste changed so much all these years? Or were they yours?

Anyway, the only problem is; it has 0% battery life. It can't be charged, and could only be on when I plugged it into the power. It probably pictures the condition best; dying and irrelevant.

I understand that we sometimes feel the need to disappear and restart our lives or something. We might need to wipe off our past to survive, and I might be included on the part that people wanna forget.

That's why I gave you those three things to promise, the first time we met, almost three decades ago;

First, you owe me nothing, not even an explanation or a good bye whenever you feel the need to leave. Second, you may leave anytime, anyway and anyhow you want to.

And the last one, those points applied for me, too.

I still hold and respect those promises until now, and that's probably everything that I want you to know, should you happen to find this post out of the blue.

You're still a good part of mine, and I wish you well.

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I was telling a close friend of mine about this iPod yesterday, when I realized that you are one of the very few people in my life where both of our families have known and met each other in person.

That somehow made me smile.

Some nights feel too young to sleep early,
tonight is one of those nights.

"I've always been the one who are too good at leaving."

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